Been Awhile

Well….my blogging habits are poor at best it seems. I can only handle one social media platform at time I guess. If I'm updating here, Facebook, Twitter, another blog, and a website I just get behind. I thought about retiring this blog, but I decided that I need a place to express some "non"art things. Some life things. Mainly about what's happening with my parents. My aging parents. My relationship with them has become an entirely new animal. I suppose it was always a changing relationship but I was just to self involved to notice that. When you're very little you don't really notice the nature of the interaction in your relationship  with your parents. When you're in your teens and early 20's you'd rather think about anything BUT your parents so noticing the nature of your relationship with them isn't high on the priority scale. When you start your own family you are engrossed in that formation so they aren't even on the radar so to speak. It's later, later when you see the weakness, the stumbles, the things undone and unlike them that you notice how it's changed and how it continues to change. And change excels at a rapid pace. Time flys by for us as we grow older but it really flys by when you watch your parents age through their last years here, on this planet, with you. There's so much emotion and complications involved with them and those last years. It's seems like a slow roll at the top of a roller coaster as it get's ready to plunge. Every episode with them is like that loud slow "CLICK………….CLICK………….CLICK" you hear as it cranks it's way across the apex of the roller coaster track. You can see it coming, you know it'll be soon, and you're powerless to stop the ride. It has to be completed. There's nothing for it…it has to be completed. I know my time with them is short now….but does it have to be painful too?